this one's for you

I thought of you today while i handed out my goodies. I thought of you while I gladly help the old women get gas. and I thought of you when I purchased all my mother's gifts. I thought of you when I looked at our tree last night. i thought of you when i decorated my tree with your cranes. i thought of you when i walked through the pike's place flower part of the market. i thought of how much you'd love the pink & white flowers. i thought about how at my wedding we would make a special flower arrangement for your seat, front and center. i thought about how i would raise my children with the same giving and loving heart as you. i thought about how you would give your whole heart to others before you helped yourself. i thought about how we cuddled that one night & how you read a prayer to me every night when i was with you. i thought about you this morning and how you'd want me to go to school, try my best, & work hard at everything.

i thought about you, everyday. i still do.

senior year

Senior year comes with so many different stress', responsibilities, laughter, memories, & such! It's exciting & also hard. I'm beyond happy to be almost done with the last four years of my life. I can finally call somethings, just a memory. And other things i'm sad to say goodbye to. Senior year is going fast, it feels like. I feel like it is almost christmas.... Is that strange?? Anywhodle! I have been extremely busy trying to get my volunteer work things in order, working on my girl scout gold award, also almost time to start college apps!!!! I already did one for WSU, but there is a lot more to do. I hope to finish them all by Oct. 13th. I think I can do it! I am making progress in me "project happiness". I'm blessed with a beautiful, loving supportive family and friendship. I couldn't be more happy with what I am have become. everything seems to be slowly, but surely coming together.

I can always see the happiness and ending that is a lot brighter than how it was & can be. Thinking about ending senior year, ending high school, leaving relationships, moving to a new locations!! It's all insane to me. I can't believe how far I've come and how much I've grown. I'm blessed to have come this far, and I don't take any of it for granted. I can only thank people so much before I burst! I can't repay anyone of my supporters, it's crazy how much they have been there for me and lead me in the right direction. I couldn't be more excited to have all of them in my life!

I hope you are all having a beautiful, warm or maybe if you're lucky, cold weather!! I am thinking of you, always!

happiness

happiness is starbucks.

happiness is laughter.

happiness is a baby's first word.

happiness is family.

happiness is a hug.

happiness is a first kiss.

happiness is love.

happiness is best friends.

happiness is great advice.

happiness is being inspired.

happiness is creating something beautiful.

happiness is loving others.

happiness is eating candy.

happiness is snuggling with puppies.

happiness is warm blankets.

happiness is a carmel frapp.

happiness is forever.

happiness.

I hope this new start will bring you, me, & all of us happiness. we all have bad days and times but we can overcome it with daily journaling, great friends, loving family, & cozy long nights. Just remember that you can do it! I'm always here for you to talk to, confide in, and laugh with. I want to know your accomplishments & learn about you let downs. I was in a horrible place before and know how much a good day means. 

Don't forget to love yourself and love others. You are beautiful!