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18th year

sorry for the lack of posts here! i've been celebrating, graduating, traveling & resting! last time i posted here, i was 17 & now i;ve been 18 for almost two months!!! i'm so excited to share with you all, FINALLY, what I did on my 18th birthday!




first things first, i went to my grandparents house to finish up my ball dress and have a little celebration with them. then my dad sent my grandma & i out to get some things for dinner. i came back to a house filled with all my family members! i was so surprised and felt incredibly blessed to have them all there to celebrate with me!







then on my real birthday i invited my closest friends to dinner & dessert at my house. i have to say that i couldn't have made it through senior year without these girls, and of course sophie, they've made my life complete and i'm blessed to call them all my best friends. we had a lovely dinner at the lazy dog and then went back to my house for ice cream and gifts. :)
all in all, i had a wonderful time, i didn't expect much from anyone so it was nice to get a surprise from my whole family! i'm truly blessed to have these people in my life & so glad they were all a part of my 18th year!


the masterpiece called YOU


this. this describes me right now.
it's as if someone started a project or beautiful master piece and then left it sitting there. they stopped to think if they actually wanted it to look one way or a different one. they wondered who might not like it and how that would affect the overall message of the art. if you think about it our life's, bodies, & minds are God's masterpieces and when we stop and question how it'll all look in the end, we become stuck on the little imperfections. why? why do we question His art? why do we only see the messy side and little tiny mistakes when all He sees is the beautiful final product & gorgeous imperfections. He sees the other side of it. we often times stop to think about the choices set in front of us, there is no problem with that, but when we stop for so long that we overthink the negative possibilities we miss His call to us. His answer to the questions we have. 

i'm calling a truce with myself. i hope that you can hold me accountable for this. i am done hating my body, heart, & myself. i can't spent the rest of my days here on earth hurting my own feels because i saw some model and it made me feel awful. i'm on my way to purchase a new notebook, in my favorite color because why not??, it'll be for the sole purpose of writing things i love about myself and my body. how grateful i am about having certain things that others might not. how blessed i am to have love and support. it'll be to lift myself up and not push me down. i can no longer stand by and let my negative thoughts over power the little ones that tell me i'm beautiful, smart, and lovely. i need to help myself by encouraging myself and other young people to enjoy life and enjoy their own flaws. 


you need to love yourself. focus on being kind to your heart and how you can impact your veiw of your imperfections. if society pushes you down & tells you need to be a size 00 to be beautiful and wear the clothes that are "in style", then you respond with a LOUD: HECK NO! I'm beautiful the way I am and i'm allowed to wear whatever I want. 
honestly, nobody fits in the tiny little cookie cutter that this world has made. not even the models we see in magazines. that is called photoshop & i've seen how they alter those men and women to look a certain way. it's honestly hurtful and rude to the models, us, and the next generations. how does anyone expect us to love His masterpieces if we keep altering them and "fixing" them to be a certain size and shape? take control of how those magazines and commercials affect you. talk back to that negative voice that tells you that you need to look like her/him in order to be successful. you DON'T. you can be yourself, look like you, and love yourself because you are unique & you're His masterpiece.