2014 has come & gone. it was an incredible and scary year. I was in a support group that really changed me for the better and I got an amazing, beautiful friendship out of it. i can't believe how lucky i am. i tried to learn from my mistakes and my mishaps. i grew into friendships and out of some. i traveled to Germany and saw family that i had never met before. I detoxed my life. I grew A LOT. I owe it all to one person, who lead me through everything. God. Here are some of the things i've started recently, i'm not calling them new years resolutions because i don't want to set that I have to wait for a new year to change things. (as ashley said)
1) take care of myself. i have learned that i can't do hard things and homework for therapy and just go about my day right after. I have to stop, acknowledge my pain or feelings about the activity and take care of myself. do something to make myself feel better. i could read, listen to music, take a bath, journal about my emotions.
2) speak my mind. a lot of the time when small or even some big things hurt me i don't say anything, afraid they will think i'm too sensitive or just always complaining. I realize that i have ruined friendships that way, i have held it in for too long and not told them until it's too late. i have to make my voice louder and speak my mind more. i need to tell people how i feel because i am human and deserve to be heard.
3) pray more. i have noticed my relationship with God becoming less and less relevant in my day-to-day life. I want to make an effort to have solo conversations and completely focus on our relationship and strengthening that. i want to also pray for my family & friends more often and more deeply. not just in a pass by kind of way. i need to be deeply meaningful about it.
4) recover. i'm not limiting this to this year. it'll take time, effort, patience, love, strength, & support. i know i can't do it alone. i have to reach out for help. take care of myself and remember that i'm human and make mistakes and thats okay.
What are your resolutions????
