sometimes you think that everything is perfect, then your world falls apart and you feel like giving up. last semester was truly difficult, emotionally and mentally hard for me. this semester came around and I knew things had to change. I came into the semester worrying about where I belonged in my sorority and who wanted to take on me, I am practically three littles rolled into one. I had three beautiful, amazing sisters offer to adopt me and this was a really hard decision because it was hard to get another big diamond sister and give them this huge responsibility. I did not know that one of the three women was my new member educator, she taught us everything we needed to know while we were new members, before we were initiated. she basically was our mother for almost two months. one night I asked her if she would consider adopting me and all my emotional baggage. I truly thought nobody wanted to adopt someone like me. over winter break, she took me in and we grew closer, inch by inch. I know for me and many other sisters it is hard to not have an automatic connection with your big diamond sister, but sometimes the ones that take time to grow are the best. I didn't truly understand how much she cared for me until she explained it to me. one evening, she said something that I will never forget "I will never leave you. I am going to be your biggest supporter through everything." that's when I knew I made the right decision and that she was truly the best big diamond sister EVER!
I got to join an amazing family and I found my place in this chapter and I could not love it any more than I already do. We are always working on ways to grow our big/little diamond relationship more and I love every minute of it. We recently recruited through informal a beautiful group of young women and they are such a huge part of our chapter already, they make me so happy! It is really weird to think that, that was me not too long ago. I was an alpha with the same burning questions and anxiously excited to learn all about my sorority!
Within these new alphas is my twin. I did not ever expect to become a twin and honestly, I didn't think I could do it because I would have to share.... I found out who she was and I remember having a brief conversation with her. She was really sweet and genuine. I had also heard from many other members that she was so nice and I would get along great with her! When big/little reveal came around for her and Hillari, I was so excited to get this new person and I could not wait to create this twin bond with her! Once it was revealed and I got to officially meet my twin, I was beyond happy and already felt so lucky to have her in my life.
It has only been a few days but I love her so much already and would do anything for her! We have grown our family into a crazy one but I would not have it any other way! I am so excited to see us all grow closer and become such good friends. I cannot wait to watch her go through initiation and learn ritual! She will be such a great part of our chapter and will be a huge part of my life!
Twin, I love you so much and I cannot wait to go on adventures, laugh, cry, and make memories together!
